Today they carried out the results for the first post national exam.

They ranked us based on our scores in 5 subjects. And I feel like really failed, though I’m not that fail. I’ve never want the first rank, or two, or three; but at least I want to be in the top half. but I just saw that I failed. 😦

Then, Simple Plan’s “Perfect” echoed in my head.

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t pretend that I’m alright

Really dad, mom, I do really want to make you proud of me. But, maybe this is all I’ve got. I’ll try much harder for sure, but I can’t promise anything to you.

Sorry I can’t be perfect.


Everything Happens…..

…….for a reason.

But the hardest part is when we don’t know yet what is the reason.

I didn’t pass a test for a university that I want. Disappointed? Sure! But I don’t want to let this feeling control me. I have to move on and do a better job in the next test next year.

I’ll do my best. 🙂

Perhaps You: Being “the Sun” in Others Life

My first attraction to this novel is its cover. It’s so creative how they use a paper shredder and somehow it really push me to read its back cover. Then, I’m amazed. It has a really good story. Well, a good story for me is a story that I can’t predict correctly before. And it’s proofed after I read it that what I guess was wrong.

This novel itself doesn’t involved too many characters which has made this novel easy to read. The language isn’t too hard or too simple to read. The story, like what I’ve said, is good. It can’t be predicted precisely by reading it’s back cover. And I love how Stephanie use the terms.

One of my favourite is  this : “Chris seperti terang lampu yang Abby nyalakan ketika hari gelap karena awan menutupi matahari. Tapi begitu sang matahari muncul, ia menyadari, cahaya lampu itu hanya semu. Mataharilah sumber cahayanya yang sebenarnya. (Chris is like a light from a lamp which Abby turned on when the day gets dark because of the sun is covered by clouds. But when the sun gets back, she realized that the lamp was not real. The sun itself is her actual source of light.)”

And also these sentences: “I won’t promise to love you as long as you live, but I promise… I will love you as long as I live.”

Such a sweet sentence, uh? Especially the last one. And it’s spoken by a man to a woman! When I read that, I was melting for sure. 😛

Two things that I don’t really enjoy: there are some typos in it (production’s mistake I believe) and the description of Daniel, Abby’s first crush, is a bit lack.

Thanks to Stephanie. I’ve learned from this novel, that we have to be open wide even if we’re in love–don’t be blind. If you love someone, be brave when you have sure about your feelings. And the most important, don’t EVER cheat in a relationship. It will hurt at least 3 people at a time in future.

Be the Sun to others, but don’t demand them to be one for you.

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Confession #4

I’ve just attend a meeting at church, and someone asked me what major I want to take for university. Then I said, “Architecture.” Then that someone said. “Oh, it suits you.”

Well, to be honest, I’m very glad to hear that.

And for another reason, I’m glad too. Um, yeah, ‘another reason’ is because it came out from that someone. Well, you should know what I mean. lol 😛

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Confession #3

Since I’m 17 on April, I just got a tought that I might have to go to some studio and take some photo with my family, just to make this year memorable.. Also, I think I need to make a scrap for myself for my 17th year on Earth.

I just haven’t make my mind yet nor decide where and when I should do so. Phew, I don’t really like to take photos though. Things and others, yes. But me, not really.

I’m definitely in an indecisive mode.  -_-

Be Mad? Wait a Minute!

I used to be at Starbucks now.

Enjoying my signature hot chocolate by listening to my friend’s story and updating my Smurf’s.

I’m still in the middle of mid tests, yeah. But the rest of the tests are-well-I don’t have to really work hard on it.

Yesterday my mum told me that I can’t go and I was really upset. She was afraid of me getting sick-with no proper reason. *ewh*

And today, I get a stomach-ache. Well, never be mad at your parents.

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Farewell: Truth, Tears, and Memories

My native english teacher, Mark, is leaving.

Yeah, leaving for almost forever. The rumor said that he was resigned. But actually, it was a lie! He explained that his contract “can’t” be extended. Also, his visa will be expired by June(or July, I forgot) and he can’t renewing it cause he has got no job! So he has to back to his country. *ew*

Well, that’s really a shame for my entire school! Why did “they” can’t give him more time? Hey boss, we love him! Nothing is wrong with him. Why do you guys fired him? ckck

The most shame will be this one: he’s going to marry his girlfriend, an Indonesian girl, next year! Unkind boss!! *grrrr*

Today, is his last day at school. He was crying! And almost all of the students in my school weren’t willing to let him go. We even try to make #WeWantMark a trending topic on Twitter. Well, hope the “boss” is on twitter and see it, so he can teach us again! Yay! 😀

Anyway, he’s been a great native teacher. He can control the class, teach well, create nice games, and have been such a warm person in his everyday life. You’ve been such a great teacher, Mark! We all love you so much!

Okay, here’s some photos for my class’ farewell.

Hope the best will be happen for Mark. Just the best. 🙂

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